Every morning that I get out for a run the past two weeks, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of joy and gratitude that I am running. I know 3.5 weeks off due to hip pain isn’t a lifetime (or even an entire month!), but it was no fun. Even if I’m getting up during the 4:00 hour of the morning after several nights of interrupted sleep (Seriously kid… what’s up with these wake ups during the night?) I am grateful.
Easy morning run. #runselfie #shoeselfie #instaweatherpro #halobelt
//platform.instagram.com/en_US/embeds.jsI finish the run and feel happy. And yet… I look at my results after and realize I am slower. It frustrates me. And then I’m frustrated that I am frustrated. It really is silly… I took several weeks off, I am running a little more tentatively/cautiously because I have this nagging concern in the back of my mind the whole time that I will suddenly feel that intense pain once more. I’m operating on 5-6 hours of sleep a night. It makes sense that I’d be slower. And I should be going slower. I have big goals for the future and I want to run big miles. I need to slow down to cover the distance, both in terms of miles and in terms of years in my life. So I shouldn’t be frustrated with myself. But I am.
Got it done, despite being awake with the kid since 4. #runselfie #shoeselfie
And yet, I’m mostly grateful. It’s so wild how running has worked its way into my blood, my soul, my being. If you’d asked me if I would enjoy running during my teenage years (or even most of my 20’s) I would have said “Hell no!” And now, I feel a little less whole if I can’t do it. That’s both wonderful and wrong. Because I am still a good person whether or not I run and I can’t put all my proverbial happiness eggs in one basket. But I’m really glad I have running to bring me this joy.
Good morning world! #runselfie #shoeselfie
And I just have to say… if you get out to run super early in the mornings or late at night and you’re in the dark, get a HaloBelt! I backed this campaign on Kickstarter and I’m so glad I did… I feel so much better running in the dark and dawn/dusk knowing I have something that makes me a little more visible. I’m definitely going to wear it when I do Ragnar again (along with the requisite butt light, headlamp/Knuckle Lights in action too.)