Monday morning I had planned on an easy run. I got up early to run, drank a little bit of juice to give me a some energy and hit the road.
I just ignored my Garmin and ran with what felt like a super easy pace. When I finished and plugged in my Garmin I saw that my average pace was about 30 seconds faster per mile than what I should have been running at for my EZ run, based on things I learned in RRCA coaching certification. But even more interesting was my heart rate was about 20 beats lower than where the RRCA pulse-based tables indicate I should be at for a run that is less than 6 miles.
Now, I know there is leeway in those numbers and I’m more inclined to follow pace charts than HR anyway, but it would appear I was hardly even working! (Well, maybe not that extreme… but still!)
So Monday was a good running day, one of those days where you just “feel” the run.
Then yesterday I was supposed to run at Fleet Feet, like I typically do on Tuesday nights. All day I was just feeling a little off. Slightly dizzy, overwhelmed, just off. I had some moments of mounting stress at work, which made me start to feel angry at everything around me. And when the anger settles in I start to tense up, so all my muscles feel like they’re going to snap. Typically it might be a good formula for a run, I could blow off some steam. But the dizziness… that was one thing that threw a wrench in everything.
When my friend texted me and said he wouldn’t be running that night, I almost felt… relief. Like perhaps it would be okay if I took the night off. Sure, I still felt some lingering guilt because I feel like they expect me to be at the FF run each week, like I’m one of the constants in that activity. I even went upstairs to put on my running clothes, but I realized I just didn’t feel all that up to running.
So I didn’t go. I wussed out on my run last night.