So… I burned out on posting every day in May! It just started to feel like too much drama…. perhaps I should have been more choosy about which of those topic prompts I followed. They started to feel… pointless. I don’t mind sharing stuff with people here on my blog, but I usually do it in my own time.

Last Friday my hubby and I got to go out to dinner, just the two of us, for our anniversary. My mom came to town to see the baby and gave us a brief escape. I probably should find a babysitter here in town, so my sitter doesn’t have to drive 2.5 hours from another state… but I don’t know that I’d find another sitter that would care for our daughter as much as a grandma can!

I’m “on vacation” this week… but basically, we suck at vacation. We initially thought we might go somewhere. And then, because we can’t plan a getaway, it kind of became a staycation. And then… my husband ended up having to work. So it’s now a “nocation”. Know what I did for my vacation day today? I took the baby to the doctor for her 9-month checkup, I mopped the kitchen floor, I cleaned the toilets, I dusted the staircase bannister… and I wore the baby during most of this. I have no idea how stay-at-home moms manage… but when I have whole days with my baby, I’m either sitting on the floor helping hold her up to stand next to things (that’s her new obsession) or I’ve got her strapped on me. I can’t get her to take a nap unless it’s in the ERGObaby Carrier. (This is probably one of the best purchases I’ve made in the baby realm… it’s been so handy.)

At her 9-month appointment the doctor said that she’s now…. 4th percentile! TA DA! My baby is small! They said the concern is that she goes down in percentile. She was 50th percentile at birth and then down to 10th by one month and has bounced around to 5th, 10th, 4th… Frankly, I’m not concerned now. She is smart, she is happy and she is active. In fact, that’s probably why she’s so low on the weight scale… she’s so active. If you ate all of your meals waving both of your arms around and kicking your legs, you’d probably burn off all your meals too. Factor in army-crawling everywhere you need to go and you’ve got a solid workout program.

I love my baby so much, but having an entire day with her makes me feel like a massive failure as a parent. I just don’t know what to do. I’m glad we’ve got her in such a good school, they teach her lessons that I would probably never even think of presenting to a baby. Okay, I know I wouldn’t think of teaching her these things. Last week they let the babies play in blue jello and yogurt, it was a sensory/tactile thing to go along with their ocean unit… yeah, my baby has been learning about the ocean this month. And I try reading a book to her and get annoyed with it and start just talking to her. I did read the book Anatomy For Runners to her the other day while she was in the Ergo. She fell asleep.

I’m just tired and frustrated with this week already… I hope you have a good night, or if it’s the next day when you read this… Good morning!