I was supposed to run a race last weekend.
I did not run a race last weekend.
Between bad weather rolling into Vegas, the baby getting (another) cold, me getting a cold too… I just didn’t feel up to it. I had plans to go to my husband’s work holiday party on Saturday evening and I knew I only had energy to do one or the other. Which is frustrating, but reality. And even the party felt a little bit exhausting to me!
My mom came into town to babysit Alex for us while we went to the party. Last time she came to town to babysit so we could have a night out, my dog ended up tripping her and she broke her arm. I’ve felt guilty for that ever since. I never gave an update on that, but my mom’s arm was broken so badly that she had to have a fixator installed. That has made it hard to do lots of things, holding a baby is included in that.
She has the fixator out now and is in a splint. Holding a sweet baby is a little easier now, but still kind of a challenge!
We bought a new car (my car!) a couple of weeks ago, but it finally arrived this week. So I got to pick up the car. Even though we ‘d already done all the paperwork and haggling at the dealership, it still took hours to pick up the car. Hours that I had to make up… but I have a car now that I can take Jade The Boxer and the baby in at the same time. Even though they’re making friends, I still don’t think it would be wise to have them both in the backseat together!
I did run about 10 miles during the week, but my schedule was such where I had to squeeze in my run after picking up Alex from school and feeding her. Which meant that I had about 30 minutes max before I had to get back home and prepare dinner. So I bundled her up in the stroller and ran up and down the streets of the neighborhood. A boring run, but it gets the job done!
Honestly, I just feel like I’m drowning. My work to-do list keeps growing faster that I can cross things off. Requests and inquiries keep coming in to my Jill Will Run email, many of which don’t even seem to apply to anything I’ve ever posted on. And I have TheRUNiverse.com, which I love, but it’s another thing to add on top of my wife/mom duties with everything else. I seriously feel like I can’t keep up… and it feels absolutely ridiculous to say that in light of the world right now. Perhaps that is part of what adds to the drowning feeling… the impression that the world is going to hell.
I’m on vacation from work now until the new year. I’m going to try hard to not think about that JOB and to be happy in the current moment. I have a cute baby girl who is squealing and chattering to herself in her swing right now. I think I’ll go visit with her.