This has been a rough running week… You know how I posted that I had a good run on Tuesday night? Yeah, that was the only run this week that was great. Thursday I felt like I was running into the wind no matter what way I turned and I was just so tired. And on Friday, the winds were very strong again, so I succumbed to my fatigue and skipped running. And today’s run… well, it was just not that awesome.
I started out wearing a pair of Lululemon running tights. I put them on and was instantly impressed with how good my butt looked in them, just like everybody says about those pants. But that’s about all they’re good for… making my butt look good! I started running and had to turn around after a half mile because they kept feeling like they were sliding down, in danger of making me sport the “coin slot” look. No thanks… not interested in that.
The plan was to do 9 miles but when I hit 3.5 miles I was hit with an overwhelming wall of fatigue. So I turned on a street that would lead me back home. After another mile of running I was done… I took off my hydration belt and dejectedly walked in the last half mile back home. (Actually, I think I was scowling the whole time.)
When I got to my neighborhood’s gate, I found that the keypad on the pedestrian gate was broken… thus I couldn’t punch in the code to get back in. And somehow, my phone still had last year’s gate code instead of the new 2011 code so I couldn’t use the car gate keypad. It was a little over another 1/2 mile to get around to the other gate for the ‘hood and I was nearly ready to get angry, but then a car pulled up and used their clicker to open the gate so I could slip in as they rolled through.
I had a step-back week planned for next week, but ended up with an unplanned step-back week this week. I’m not sure if I’ll flip-flop the step-back week on my schedule and do the training I should have or just go with two step-backs.
The biggest reason that I can guess for feeling so wiped out is that on Wednesday I went to the doctor, where they drained about 5 vials of blood from my arm and then gave me a prescription for progesterone. Any time you start messing around with hormones, that’s bound to have an affect on how you’re feeling. And considering I’m on the progesterone for 10 days, I’m not quite sure how I’ll feel throughout next week either.
I’m also mentally drained. My mom is having pretty big surgery tomorrow and I’m beating myself up for not being there with her. Her sister is coming to help her, it’s not like I’m leaving her entirely alone. And with my husband traveling for work I didn’t want to board JadeTheBoxer for the week. I will go see her as soon as I can… but it does wear on me to think that my mom is going in for something significant and scary and that I can’t be right there with her at that moment, to comfort her and take care of her.
So… Monday is a fresh start…
I hope to relax and meditate and get my running groove back…
and visit my mom.
Think positive thoughts for her, pray for her, burn some incense for her, whatever it is you feel will help…