Boston Marathon 2015 Recap – Numero Uno

On Monday, April 20, 2015 I ran the Boston Marathon as part of Team Stonyfield, with over 27,000 other runners participating in the race.


Where do I even begin? This was one of my best running experiences ever!

I arrived in Boston on Saturday evening; I flew out of Vegas at 7 AM to San Francisco and then caught another flight to Boston. It was the option that got me to Boston the earliest! My friend Terri picked me up at the airport, she was gracious enough to be my host and guide for the weekend in a city I had never been too. We went back to her place to dump my stuff then went out for Vietnamese food.

Sunday was a beautiful day. A little chilly to my desert blood, but not that bad and the partly cloudy sky made it fun to see a little bit of Boston.




I had a lunch date with the members of Team Stonyfield, my first opportunity to meet the team in person and they’re all wonderfully kind people. And the Stonyfield people were fantastic, so supportive and encouraging. They gave us all gift bags with a hat, sweatshirt, carabiner and a card. Lunch was at a place called Sonsie, the food was tasty, albeit a little salty. But before a marathon extra salt is good!

After eating we went to the expo and took group photos at the Stonyfield booth. The Stonyfield members at the booth greeted us like we were rock stars and made us feel welcome.


Next I needed to pick up my race packet and bib number. I made my way back through the expo and saw Varidesk was there, I made a mental note to go back because I’ve wanted one of those for a while now. I also saw Epson there with a running watch and wanted to see what that was about. If it is running and technology, I want to play. I embrace my geek girl status!


I took the escalator up a level to retrieve my number. I was super impressed with how quick and efficient that process was. And the volunteers helping with the process were so nice and seemed genuinely happy for all of us. All thousands of us!


Back down to the expo, I was dumped into the official Adidas shop. I wanted to make two purchases: buy the Boston Marathon jacket and the Spike the Unicorn stuffed toy for my daughter. I struck out on the unicorn, they sold out. I didn’t know the toy existed or that it is apparently a hot commodity. I just knew that after my daughter’s requests to “go to the unicorns” a few weeks ago, it would be a fun surprise after mommy had been gone a few days. So if I do the race again, I will try to get her a unicorn earlier!


I wandered through the expo a bit, met up with Terri and forgot to stop by the booths I had wanted to. I did sample the new Generation UCAN bar and it tasted pretty good. I also bought a Sparkly Soul headband from their Boston Marathon collection.


Terri and I took the T back to her place and ordered in pad Thai. I have been terrible with having any kind of consistent pre-long run meal this training cycle, so I didn’t have anything in particular I wanted. But the pad Thai tasted great and was good energy for the race. Need to remember that for the future.

Monday morning I woke up around 5:30, which sounds like sleeping in compared to all my training, but it was the same as 2:30 AM at my house so it was actually really early. However, the time difference hadn’t started to affect me much yet and I was excited and ready to go. I ate some cereal with almondmilk and a banana, got dressed, covered myself in BodyGlide and slathered my feet with RunGoo. I have never had problems with lots of blisters, just occasionally I’ll get one but it’s not consistent ever… But I had no idea what was going to happen during the race due to the weather.

The weather? Rain predicted. All day rain.


In addition there was wind and the temps were supposed to be in the 40’s when I looked at the most updated forecast. (That screenshot was from the day before!) I’m glad Terri lent me a long sleeve top to wear under my tank because a tank and arm warmers wouldn’t have cut it for me out there. I had throwaway sweats and a fleece jacket to wear before the race started too.

At 8 AM Terri and I walked over to pick up a ZipCar so she could drive me to the finish area. I checked in my gear bag with clothes, flip-flops and face wipes in it.


Next I met up with Team Stonyfield members Laura and Rachel, and we boarded a bus for Hopkinton.


To be continued in another post… this is getting long!


A Netflix List Ramble


I saw an article about the 50 Best TV Series on Netflix a while back and decided I’d compare the list with my own viewing history and use it to start deciding on new things to watch. What does this have to do with running? Nothing. But I’m not marathon training anymore…  so I have more time to watch TV? Okay, not really… I have the same amount of time because most of the time when I watch old episodes of TV it’s while I’m working and I frequently miss out on lots of the story because I use it as background noise to compensate for the fact that I don’t go into an office each day. And other times that I would have been running (aka 4AM) I think I’ll use for some sleep for a while.

I should use some of the time I’m not running to clear up my inbox. It’s out of control, but I don’t want to. It’s not fun. I’m still debating the direction of this site. In the early days of (2008) this site was all about training for a marathon with Team in Training. I made new friends and was part of a running blogger community, several of those people are still some of my most favorite people! As my running obsession grew, I started to post reviews on things I purchased just because I felt like it. Writing was fun and it felt natural.

Then I shared my decision to enter into eating disorder treatment. I wouldn’t call myself an “ED blogger” but I do advocate for positive body image messages, and that falls firmly within my definition of being healthy so it was kind of a natural addition to the site. Running and healthy living and body positivity.

Next I chronicled my years as a running coach with the Team Challenge organization and all the fun that came with that. (Seriously, I can’t say enough good things about Team Challenge!) I started receiving review products for free more frequently and I felt honored that companies reached out to me. I still had a fun community of people on this site and everything here was all fun.

Next up came pregnancy/having a baby and my time became more of a commodity. At the same time the influx of pitches coming into my inbox increased massively. I accept maybe 10% of what comes to me and I ignore anything that comes to “Dear Ms Jill Blogger” – if they can’t be bothered to find out more about my site, I can’t be bothered with their pitch. Many pitches come with the offer “for pictures of this product, write back.” I don’t work for pictures… and posting about all of these things in some ways is work. Even if my income doesn’t come from this site (I have a full-time career and the money I do get from this site would leave me homeless if I had to live off it.), taking the time to test and write a review on something takes time. And there are days it is less fun to run this site. Looking at my inbox usually invokes the “less fun” feeling.

My comments dropped and I don’t feel as much of a community here, yet my traffic increases and the pitches keep coming. But I also feel I’ve lost a little bit of “Jill” in all this. I started blogging in 2001 when I needed to do something to fill the hole that was occupied by my wedding website. (Yes, I had a wedding website way before it was considered semi-normal to do so. I was Super-geek-girl and I loved it!) Blogging was something I read about in tech magazines and I did it as a geek thing, after figuring out that I was already doing a form of blogging anyway… I just didn’t have a database engine behind it as blogs now do!

My former blog site is still out there, mostly stagnant. There are days I think I’d like to merge that one with this site, injecting more of my personal stories/anecdotes/observations into this site. There are days I think I should take this old school and write strictly about running. There are days I think I’ll just shut it down. But I can’t… I’d miss it and feel the void. Writing is my creative outlet, even when it’s really bad writing. But then… there is a void with this site right now. It’s not completely what I want.


So anyway… I saw an article about the 50 Best TV Series on Netflix a while back and decided I’d compare the list with my own viewing history and use it to start deciding on new things to watch.

  1. Breaking Bad: Never seen it, it’s next to watch with my husband
  2. Freaks and Geeks/Undeclared: Never seen it (er… them)
  3. Louie: Never seen it
  4. Friday Night Lights: Never seen it
  5. Sherlock: Never seen it
  6. Arrested Development: Seen the first few episodes
  7. Friends: Seen most episodes, if not all, in real-time and re-runs
  8. Archer: Never seen it
  9. Mad Men: Never seen it
  10. Orange is the New Black: Watched most of season 1, got tired of it
  11. Scrubs: Seen lots of episodes, never in order
  12. 30 Rock: Seen them all, mostly real time
  13. The X-Files: Never got into it when it was airing
  14. Gilmore Girls: Just finished watching it on Netflix because of this list
  15. West Wing: Never seen it
  16. Doctor Who: Never seen it
  17. Firefly: Never seen it
  18. Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Watched first couple seasons on Netflix a few years back
  19. Luther: Never heard of it
  20. The Office: Watched it all, some episodes multiple times. Fantastic show!
  21. Peaky Blinders: Never heard of it
  22. Parks and Recreation: Never seen it
  23. Black Mirror: Seen heard of it
  24. Bob’s Burgers: Never seen it
  25. Better Off Ted: Never heard of it
  26. Terriers: Never head of it
  27. The Walking Dead: Watching it now with my husband, I love it
  28. House of Cards: Never seen it
  29. Raising Hope: Watched it real time
  30. The Wonder Years: Watched it real time when I felt like catching an episode
  31. Parenthood: Watched it real time on Hulu
  32. Lost: Watched it mostly real-time
  33. It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia: Watched everything on Netflix, loved it. Should have recorded season 10 on DVR!
  34. The New Girl: Saw the first couple episodes, didn’t stick with it
  35. Portlandia: Never seen it
  36. How I Met Your Mother: Watched it all real time
  37. Alias: Seen them all, have DVD boxed sets for seasons 1-3
  38. Family Guy: Seen lots of episodes, some more than others
  39. Quantum Leap: Never seen it
  40. Cheers: Have seen lots of episodes, absolutely not in order
  41. Dexter: Never seen it
  42. Damages: Never seen it
  43. Psych: Never seen it
  44. Fringe: Watched the series in real time, recorded each week on my DVR
  45. Top of the Lake: Never heard of it
  46. Arrow: Never seen it
  47. Scandal: Never seen it
  48. The League: Never seen it
  49. Sons of Anarchy: I actually kind of watched half of the first season, but just stopped for some reason
  50. Broadchurch: Never even heard of it

As I mention, I watched the show Gilmore Girls due to this list and I have thoughts on it… a whole blog post rattling around in my head. It’s the type of post that I’d just dump on my old site without thinking. I want to write it, so I shall write it. But now I think, “Will anyone want to read this? Would this upset people if it’s on this running/healthy living site? Will all those companies who send me stuff dislike this? Do I care?”

So while I watch TV shows and ponder what direction this site is going to go, I’ll leave you with this: What shows have you watched on this list and would recommend and/or discourage?


Boston Marathon: Check!

You know how they say you shouldn’t try anything new on race day? Well, living in the desert I had never really run in the rain before. A tiny sprinkle a couple of times but never REAL rain. But today I had no choice but to try something new on race day! 26.2 miles of rain/wind/cold to finish the Boston Marathon! It was amazing and I will write more later. But I’m so glad Stonyfield chose me for this! 


Boston Bound

I fly out for the Boston Marathon tomorrow. TOMORROW! Tomorrow I get the opportunity to go to Boston and run in the infamous Boston Marathon because Stonyfield (the official yogurt of the Boston Marathon!) hand-picked me from amongst many running-mom bloggers to be part of Team Stonyfield. I am incredibly grateful to them for this opportunity. Go buy as much Stonyfield yogurt as you can to thank them for me! :-)

Stonyfield Organic

Anyway… I have never been more nervous before a race in my life. Yes, my training was more sporadic than marathon training in the past, simply because when you are a mother there are more things that can pop up and surprise you. Don’t berate me for saying that… I’ve done the training multiple times as childless married person and now with a kid. Having the kid added a whole new wrench to the process! (And she’s a lovely little wrench!)

So even though my miles didn’t end up clocked the way I’d anticipated, I am as ready as I’ll ever be and need to do the ol’ trust in my training thing. There are some things that I’ve been using throughout my training that have worked really well for me, so they’re making the journey with me.

Generation UCAN

I heard about this Generation UCAN superstarch on various sites/blogs and finally decided to order a sample pack to try. I was super impressed about how it fueled me for a good long time with no spikes and crashes in energy. So after I went through my sample packets I ordered a canister of the Lemonade flavor, which was my favorite out of the packets. But now that I’m at the marathon, I’m really tired of it. I almost wish I had just ordered more packets and had a variety! And Meb drinks it… so this makes me part-Elite, right?


Fitletic belt

I have 3 belts from Fitletic. Some of them are actually branded as iFitness, as it was before they changed their name. I referred a lot of my Team Challenge runners to them. And even though I already had a couple of their belts, I purchased another one for this race. One with built-in water bottles this time. Plus it has bib number toggles so I don’t have to deal with safety pins. Their belts don’t move around as much as others. You can’t wear a backpack hydration system in Boston and I did all my training on my own… so I’m used to carrying fluids and it makes me more comfortable to have them available on my schedule.


Salt Stick

I had never tried electrolyte capsules before now. I had heard about them a lot… but in all these years I’d never used them. That was a mistake! I’m a salty sweater, something I’ve always known. But I feel A LOT better popping a Salt Stick cap every hour during a long run and one at the conclusion. It seems to keep some of my dizzy feelings at bay. My recovery has been really good after each long run, so maybe this had something to do with that!


Neutrogena Naturals makeup remover towelettes

Neutrogena is doing a “Wipes for Water” campaign with their Naturals makeup remover wipes. Basically, the idea is that you are saving water by using a wipe. I don’t know about how all that works, because you are generating more waste with these too… but I do know these are going in my gear check bag for the finish line because they are extremely gentle on my facial skin and I will want to get a little cleaned up upon race conclusion!

Bani Band

I’ve been wearing a Bani Band headband on most of my runs for about a year now? I don’t know exactly how long… but it’s been a while. They don’t slide off my head. They are adjustable with a little clip that is kind of like a bra strap adjuster. They come in cute patterns and I just really like the ones that are about 1″ wide. I have a thinner one that I’ve never actually worn because my daughter claimed it as her own! I meant to order a new one for the race… but I’ve hardly had time to remember my own name! So old sparkly it is!


Update: Rain is in the forecast! I may have to wear a hat. Please don’t rain, please don’t rain, please don’t rain!

Fabletic capris

In the past, I was sooooo superstitious about my marathon training that once I decided on the pair of pants I was wearing in the race, I trained in them for every long run. No variation. This time around I basically decided I would probably be wearing capris because those should be comfortable in Boston, but wouldn’t be too hot on the warmer days I would get here in Vegas leading up to the race. And then I found Fabletics… and they have so many fun patterns and I love the way they fit and I have ended up with a lot of different pairs. So in a way I was doing the same thing where I trained in the same pants, but I had different pants! LOL So I’ll be wearing my camo Fabletics capris on course.

Longest #bostonmarathon training run done! Let’s taper! #shoeselfie #runselfie #teamstonyfield

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And of course I’m glad there will be Stonyfield at the finish line… because that’s a great source of protein and my body will be needing that after 26.2 miles!

Wish me luck… I’m terrified!

Freak Out: Commence Now

So…. these past few months have been really really trying for me at work. Lots of big projects and changes have kept my brain capacity and stress level at max. And last Friday was kind of the culmination of it all. Big project launched and the next few weeks will be monitor/maintenance/upkeep but the stress should be greatly diminished. So now that my brain has a little space for something else to take center stage…



This is the point where I start to over-think the event:

  • Uh… what am I going to wear?*
  • What’s the weather looking like now? How about now? And now?
  • What am I going to eat?
  • How do I get around Boston?
  • I’m going to miss my baby!
  • Will the kiddo be mad at me for being gone so long?
  • I totally got this.
  • What am I doing? I can’t do this!
  • This is the biggest and best opportunity EVAH!
  • What was I thinking?
  • Seriously… what should I wear?
  • Am I going to be cold?
  • Oh… is it going to be humid? I don’t deal with humidity, I live in the desert!
  • Boston is 3 hours different from my time zone. Oh noes!

I love my cute shirt from Run Far Girl that is at the top of this post and I’m totally going to wear that on my flight home the day after the race! If you want to get your hands on one of those you can do so through her shop, and any purchases of blue/yellow (Boston colors) gear on the shop through April 20 gets 20% donated to Girls on the Run.

I know I’m going to feel guilty for being gone.

The panic is real people…

*I do have a tank to wear from Stonyfield… it is super cute. And I’ve been training in Fabletics capris assuming I’d wear them. But I question if I should wear a shirt under my tank or if arm warmers will be sufficient.

My #teamstonyfield jersey just arrived!!! #bostonmarathon #AwesomeA

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Clif Organic Energy Food

So… a little while back I was sent some pouches of the latest and greatest(?) from Clif – their Organic Energy Food pouches.


The ingredient list impressed me… nice simple food ingredients. The flavors intrigued me… the fruit ones sounded decent enough and well… Pizza Margherita is definitely unique and deserves some kind of attention, right?

Let’s get to the fruit ones first, okay? I thought those were great. They tasted wonderful, they went down easily and they stayed down. The problem is the size of the pouch. It’s actually convenient so you can carry it and sip on it a little bit while running without worrying about it getting all over as much as a gel pouch might. But… it’s just big. And the cap is big. And the whole thing makes for a bulky bit of cargo. And it would be really annoying to try to haul multiple packs in a waist belt. (And seeing as how I’m running Boston soon and no back packs are allowed on course, I had to stick with a waist pack.)

This was consumed on my run today, I REALLY liked it! @clifbarcompany #organicenergyfood

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So onto the other flavors… I admit, I was both excited and terrified to try these. The positive: they contain nice ingredients.

Now for the negatives… The pouch is even bigger than the fruit flavors. They contain a lot of fat which could be harder to digest, provided you get them down. Which I didn’t. On two separate long runs I took one of the savory flavors with me. On each occasion I tried them around the 15-mile mark. Each time I got one sip (bite) and promptly spat it into the rocks.

Soooooooo baaaaaaaaaad…….

I’m sorry Clif. I love you, I think you’re swell and I like many of your products. My daughter thinks your Clif Kids Zfruit+Veggie are candy. But these Clif Organic Energy Food pouches… I can’t even! (That’s what they say these days right? “I can’t even!”)

Apparently NPR can’t even either.


It’s a Hard Taper

ta·per 1. diminish or reduce 2. the training phase right before a long distance event, such as a marathon, when a runner starts to cut back on his or her mileage.

I ran a grand total of 2 times last week. 10 measly miles. Wait! No…. it was only 9 miles. During the taper you are supposed to cut back on your mileage, but I don’t think it’s supposed to be 60 to 0 (or 45 to 9, as it may have been) in one week… it’s usually a little more gradual than that.

I had thought I was going to run about 28-30 miles last week, but life got in the way. I don’t talk about the specifics of where I work on my site, but in my day job I work (more than*) full-time as a “Director of Web Services” and we are supposed to be launching a new site this week. So last week was filled with tons of calls and meetings to get ready for this week. I worked early in the morning to get tasks done before my daughter woke up and I was testing things on my iPhone and iPad while playing with her in the evenings. Combined with the fact that I was just exhausted all week, I only made it out to run twice during the work week.

Then we had visitors on Saturday morning and I didn’t want to traipse all over them before dawn. Sunday I set my alarm for 4 am to go run before #AwesomeA woke up to see what the Easter Bunny had left behind; but I must have just turned that alarm off and went back to sleep because around 6 my husband poked me and said, “You didn’t go run.”


This week holds more stress. Our new site is supposed to launch on Friday, but when you work with a team of people and several of these people have failed to get things to you by deadlines… you gotta make it work somehow, especially when you’ve basically been told “You have no choice in this launch, it doesn’t matter if you have to work all hours of the day and night to make it happen, it will happen.” And we combine that with the fact that I am essentially a single parent from January until May because my husband works stupid-long hours… it’s a challenge. My heart races just thinking about it.

But on the flipside, I really want the site to launch by the end of this week, so I have the weekend and early days next week for follow-up troubleshooting. Because I definitely don’t want to carry that into Boston with me for the marathon.


So while I try to pace my brain and wish that all of my meditation attempts had stuck, I’m going to leave you with the joy of a two-year-old experiencing Easter.

“How ’bout eggs?” #AwesomeA

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*When you telecommute and live in your work, it’s so easy to just do that “one last task” at odd hours. And with our world of convenient technology, it’s sadly gotten to a point that instead of making life easier, it’s making it so I feel more betrothed to the job. You will work the standard 8-5 (or 7-4 as in my case) PLUS you’ll respond to emails/texts/calls around the clock.

JVC Sport Headphones

If you’ve read my site or social media for any amount of time, you’ve probably picked up that I take issue with runners blocking out the world as they run. And if you haven’t picked up on that… I HATE when people have headphones on and cannot hear the world around them. I have run past people and had them get startled as I passed them because they never heard me coming. I have had runners I coached not even hear me come up behind them, run next to them and start talking to them because they were looking straight down and had on headphones to drown out the world. That’s dangerous… don’t do that!

So when I was given the opportunity to check out a new pair of sport headphones from JVC that have features that help runners listen to their tunes but still be aware of the world, I had to jump on that.


JVC HA-ETR40 features:

  • A soft, rotating rubber hook that holds them securely in place and
    can be adjusted to get the perfect fit;
  • Waterproof and washable;
  • Two sets of earpieces — conventional that seal out ambient noise (in three sizes) and “open type” (also in three sizes) that allow ambient sounds to be heard so runners can hear the sound of approaching vehicles, etc.;
  • Two-piece cord — Use the short cord if you wear your phone/music player on your arm, and so avoid the hassle of excess cord; use the extension if you carry your phone in your hand or pocket;
  • One-button microphone and remote control

Waterproof and washable are super cool. A remote/microphone is a fantastic feature. Two piece cord so you can have a shorter line when wearing your device on your arm is swell. But I want to focus on the different earpieces…


I was curious how well the different earpieces would actually work. So I took all the little parts and pieces into my backyard. There is a fairly big road construction project happening just over the wall from my house (will be sooooooo nice when that is done!) and my backyard is fairly noisy right now. It scares my dog.

I put the conventional buds in place, popped them in my ear and turned on music. Sure enough, I didn’t hear much construction noise. So… they’re great at blocking out ambient noise. Then I switched to the open buds, they have little divots around them. And I was very pleasantly surprised at how much I could hear the offending construction noise.

Hanging out in the backyard = don’t want to hear that construction ambiance

Going on a run = necessary to hear the worldly traffic ambiance

Honestly, I was pretty impressed and I’m glad to have these JVC sport headphones as another headphone option in my arsenal of recommendations. Great sound and safety options!


You can snag a pair for about $35. They come in two color options: red/black and gray/black.

Disclaimer: All reviews are my own opinion, this product was provided free for the purpose of review.

I Pity Da Fool!

  • I feel totally ready for the Boston Marathon. Marathons are easy!
  • I love Linkin Park’s music.
  • I really dislike broccoli.
  • It’s amazing how well rested I feel.
  • I handle stress really well.
  • I want another baby.
  • Skirts are totally my comfort zone.
  • I’m totally glam.
  • I love makeup.
  • I am the go-to-gal for hair advice.
  • I ran today.
  • I have really crappy employees. They never save my bacon!
  • Being a mom is super easy. I was born for this job.
  • Transformers is a totally awesome movie franchise.
  • I think my next big thing will be a figure competition.
  • The Tonight Show sucks. Jimmy Fallon doesn’t rock.
  • Vampires are so cool. I loved when they were everywhere.
  • Swings are so much fun. Wheeee……..
  • I have too much free time.

PS…. I pity ‘da fool that believes this list! Happy April Fools Day!


Let the Madness Begin

It’s….. time…. to…. TAPER!!!!

Some people get a little case of “Taper Madness” in the weeks leading up to the marathon. Mileage is reduced and people start to get antsy, thinking if they cram in one more hard workout or throw in new classes to fill their time they’ll get to the start line better/stronger/faster… I’ve felt that too. But not this time. (Okay, one day into it… but still, bear with me here!) I’m sooooooo ready to taper. Get the legs feeling fresh? Yes please! Maybe sleep a little more? Hallelujah! Watch more The Walking Dead? WOO HOO, I’m addicted! (I’m also kind of sad that I’m so behind on this show… I totally would have been watching Talking Dead all this time too! But alas, I just started watching it this year.)

Taper Madness is sounding more like Taper Bliss.

Another kind of madness is going on around the country… March Madness. Are you into college basketball? I’m…. not. In fact, I’ve gotten more and more anti-college sports the longer I’ve been married. But I get it, it’s “a thing”. But a kind of tournament I can get behind here is from Skin Authority… they’re showing off some of their products that represent offense/defense. My favorite defense is their Sunscreen Moisturizer. They’re doing a tournament from April 1 to April 6 where a product will represent each team in the Final Four… and multiple people can win one of the products and the grand prize winner will win them all.


Figuring out my schedule this week may lead to madness… I’m already super confused with my daughter’s spring break this week. Spring Break means there is no school. But we could pay more $$$ to send her to “Spring Camp” this week… but I have no clue if she’s supposed to be in uniform or if the extended care hours come into play this week or not. It’s all so confusing! I took her into school when camp started today, not in a uniform, and a bunch of kids were there already; so I assume extended care is still in effect? Which is good because I need my work hours, especially over these next couple weeks!

Oh… and another madness that may get me is 2-year-old madness. Parenting a kid who is 2.5 is an interesting kind of hell/heaven. That kid can break down at a moment’s notice and be screaming, and you can be filled with stress and anxiety about what caused this yet filled with so much love for this little screaming tornado at the same time. Honestly… I don’t understand how people have more kids because as fantastic as she is… every time she has one of these meltdowns I’m like “Sterilization? Sign me up!” But then she calms down, stops crying and says “I no want water in my eyes.” and I’m instantly filled with a warm rosy glow… that still says “Sterilization? Sure… let’s do that but let me play with this kid for a little while.”