Well, well, well…. it’s time to renew the hosting for this site. And I’m debating whether or not I should keep it going.
It feels scary and sad to just pull it all down. (I’ll never let the domain lapse, that’s mine!) But I also don’t post much here, I don’t have any running/racing stories to share these days so the only things I post are the occasional “hey, this company sent me something free” posts. And I’m pretty sure those companies aren’t getting any bang for their buck because my site barely gets traffic like it used to. I used to get thousands of views a day and now I’m hanging out around 50. That sounds so paltry and sad…
There’s also the side that blogging is not a “if you build it they will come” thing these days. I made a ton of friends back in the day. (I started this site in 2008, and I’ve been blogging since 2001!) I didn’t have to go out on social media platforms and basically beg people to stop by, but that’s how it works now. And I’m bad at that social promotion. “Please visit my site, I posted something new!”
I always feel like a fraud when I try to share posts that way. It usually comes across as, “So, I tested this thing and wrote about it.”
So anyway… here I am, contemplating blowing the site up. I posted it on Twitter and was asked why I would. The best answer I can come up with is that this hobby site feels like a chore most of the time, and the desire to blow it up is also coming from an existential crisis moment, fueled by depression, rage, frustration, and COVID-19 isolation. I want to break something and this is something I can break?
Maybe I need a break. From everything. I admit, I’m struggling with life right now.
They’re plastic-y, lightweight, fake Birkenstocks that I like more than my real Birks. Also, this is an affiliate link so if you buy something from Amazon from following my link, a few pennies get pitched my way at no cost to you. Maybe then I would pay the hosting renewal and keep the site up and running! 🙂