Sometimes life throws you a curve-ball. And sometimes that curve-ball hits you smack in the head*, leaving you dazed, confused, bewildered and angry.
That’s how I’ve been feeling for almost a month now.
Dazed, confused, bewildered and angry at the curve-ball that hit me pretty hard.
Those feelings aren’t that healthy, especially considering I’m just keeping them trapped inside and stewing. I’ll probably schedule an appointment with my therapist (whom I haven’t been seeing as frequently lately) just to process all of this. I’m not sure I’m ready to discuss all this with anyone other than my therapist. I feel like I need the safety that her couch brings and the non-judgment that she offers. (It’s not like the stereotype where I lay on a couch… I just sit on a couch in her office while talking to her. FYI.)
But I need to do some things on my own to improve my outlook. So right now my plan is:
- A walk or run of at least 1 mile each day, mid-day in the sunshine. Take special note of how lucky I am that I can do that and other good things in my life.
- Daily meditation. At least 10 minutes, sitting or laying still while using the Simply Being app in my iPhone.
It’s not a cure-all… but it’s a start. I do feel a little less like I’m drowning after these activities.
I am also planning on putting together some artwork in my office. I haven’t done much with my office since moving to the new house. (There’s even a big box of stuff sitting in the corner. Occasionally I rummage through it to find something. I’m really lacking storage in the room now that I’m down a closet and a desk.) Now that the new year has started, I’m back to sitting in that lonely room for long hours each day. I need stuff to cheer me up on the walls. I think I’m going to do a couple of things:
I need to find some inexpensive white frames for these. I understand IKEA has a ton of those things… but we don’t have an IKEA. Got any suggestions?
*I got hit in the head with a baseball at one of my brother’s little league games when I was a kid. That’s exactly the feeling… Dazed, confused, bewildered and angry. My analogy is spot-on… for those of you who don’t know.