Well, last month I set a goal for myself (in the Active Goals app – I reviewed it over on TheRUNiverse.com) to run 75 miles. I fell short…

But that’s okay… I guess… Kind of…

Alright, I admit… I’m frustrated! I had some miserable runs. I had some good runs. I struggled to fit them in with my work schedule and mom schedule. I kind of look forward to a time when I can once more wake up early in the morning and go for a run. As it stands right now, when you have to start work at 7 AM and you are breastfeeding, there’s not a lot of space to do that.

I’m also extremely annoyed with my GI troubles. And they’ve been really troublesome. I have always had stomach troubles, my whole life. When I started running, they became more amplified. And now that I’ve had a baby, they’ve increased even more. I kind of think I need to give myself some leeway and just slow down even more when I run. But I also feel very much “on display”, like people are expecting me to post my paces and distances. Dailymile can be a double-edged sword… you can receive all kinds of positive encouragement from a community of athletes, but it also leaves me feeling a little… judged. I’m sure it’s all in my head, but it’s still there.

I keep thinking I should set a February running goal in Active Goals, but I haven’t brought myself to do it yet. At least if I do, it’s all personal and I don’t have to share it with anyone. (Like I’m doing here… and I probably would share it here anyway! But at least it would just be a wrap-up report and not a day-by-day, minute-by-minute report!)

So all of this is a rambling way of saying that I don’t know what I’m doing in February. I’m blaming my incoherence on lack of sleep due to a baby with a cold. No… not blaming it on HER, blaming it on the situation! 🙂